"I don't deserve this."

I know that without a doubt. Maybe I didn't deserve to die the first time the Jackal tried to kill me, but I've deserved it a hundred times over since then. Ben didn't deserve to die. I certainly didn't deserve to come back from the dead and be given this second chance.

"So there has to be a reason," I say. "And I just- I have to keep doing my best. But I need to try and understand why he died and I didn't."