"I'm not going to kill myself!" I growl, frustrated that I can't convey what I want to. If I could tell her more about myself, I could explain it better but then I'd lose a friend. But how can I explain that I've died before and did not enjoy it at all?

"Sorry, I... thank you for worrying but if I haven't killed myself by now it's not going to happen. I- maybe some day I'll explain."